OK this is the story on how ive changed to become a better person than before, Alhamdulillah. When we talked about Hidayah Allah it is a gift from Allah. Not everyone in this world have a chance to have Hidayah from Allah. It may either come from ur dreams or certain situations. But usually people often received it from their dreams. That is because a good friend of mine had also changed from free hair into hijab. Alhamdulillah. It was amazing. Rezeki they say. Some people say that to know whether they had received hidayah from Allah is that they immediately changed to become a far better person whether from inside or outside of them. So, here i would love to share my stories on how ive changed.
The story started before i went on my vacation to London. A few weeks before or before ive changed, i admit that i had done lots of bad things. I was Jahil at that time. I received my hidayah from my dream. It is during the crisis between Palestin and Israel. At that night, during asleep, i had a dream where not only me where a few people that i had known were also in my dream as well. Well, i saw a huge flaming environment as i was in hell. People were screaming and shouting and some of them also say something like this "ya allah! ya allah!". Yep. it was very scary. It was the sound of people being burned in fire. Nauzubillah. And then it was me. Even i had been thrown into the fire pit where i had been burned to rot in the depth of hell. Ya allah i screamed!. Ya Allah ampunilah dosa2 ku!. Even a few people that i had known in this world also received the same tortured just like me which being thrown to the fire. I dun wan to say their names but yeah their are close to me. With all the yelling and a very eerie environment i sddenly awake in the middle of the nite. I was in shocked. Tears suddenly came out. I was paranoid. So that is how i received my hidayah. Yeahh at first it was awkward that even some people dislike my changes. I noe. But wat can i do. I was paranoid after the dream. So, everything i did feels like i did something wrong. But, lately i had balanced myself with all the advice and knowledge. We must have balanced in every thing we do in our lives. Including our Islamic understandings. So, Alhamdulillah all five prayers i havent missed lately. Al quran still becomes my favourite book. Step by step i will try to change. At least ive becomed a better person than before. Ya allah ya tuhanku. Alhamdulillah for choosing me. U r my god. Islam is my religion. Al quran and sunnah is how i go through to this world.
